GOODBYE UGANDA

hey guys!! hope everyone is doing so well!

so i am writing you all this as i sit here getting my hair braided, i don't have internet but im writing this in hopes ill get to an internet cafe in time to post this before i am home!

So to update you a little bit on how things have been going! i did my lap top fast and let me tell you that you have no idea how much you are attached to a material item until something like that arrises.. i honestly at times felt like a drug addict every time i saw my lap top i would have to fight myself not to go on the internet! see something wrong with that? ahah! but i managed to do my week of no computer and it was amazing cause i had so much time to spend with god, all the beautiful moments like sitting on my porch over looking the mountains on facebook? now i spent those moments thanking god that he is so wonderful! so its safe to say it went well and i suggest it to all of you! if there is something you do daily recreationally if you can replace that and spend time with god instead for a while i would try! you never notice how much time you spend doing that thing until you take time away! 

But the countdown is going and everyday i wake up nervous because the number of days until i go home are only getting smaller.. and weirdly honestly terrified of going home! how strange is that? but  i have been here for so long and come acostom to this life style im nervous of what lifes going to be like when i go home, back to reality.. It frightens me.. but i am so excited. I have been trying my best to enjoy every single thing that happens here and really soak up all the black baby love i can get! im doing okay though! it seems thats a common question '' how are you feeling'' well im feeling scared but im at peace. God is closing this chapter of my life but that doesn't mean im finished.. this just makes me so much more excited to see whats next.. God brought me to Africa! that is something that always sat in the back of my head as a un touchable dream! but i got my dream, i lived it! and its been so wonderful here.. it just shows me that god can do anything! something i always knew but i never truly grasped it until now.. no dream is to big for God, he always has a hand on us.. and no matter what we do that we feel we don't deserve these gifts from god he is patient with us and he waits.. and waits.. and waits because he looks down on us and sais i want them.. i have great plans for her/him.. and that rocks my world! hahah! so for now im sad, scared, nervous but  excited! i think im ready! im ready to go home and take the next step in my life!! and share to all of you what amazing things i have seen and done over here !! the worlds only as big as you make it

One thing i have noticed though is my love for the babies keeps getting deaper.. and it makes me happy but nervous because for some reason in my last week here these babies have completely stole my heart! i didn't think it was possible to love them any more than i already do, but apparently it was! i love them all individually and i will never forget all of these babies.. they changed me! who knew a baby could change and bless a nineteen year old girl so much! but they have! they are the reason for my happiness here! God has such an awesome plan for the kids in this program and i ask you to keep not just the babies and even me but this program in your prayers! they are seriously doing some wonderful things over here and there changing lives! there changing uganda!! and god has had such grace on them and he isn't finished! he is just getting started! so if you think of it please think to pray for them! they need all the prayers they can get! its not easy to run this of course !! 

So i have al of you to thank for everything about my trip i can't thank you all enugh!! i have survived a mud hut, monkey trecking , safari , weird food everything with safety and i have been blessed and not been sick once! and that is all thanks to you guys over in canada praying like wariors! i am very lucky to have had such safety during the un rest here and the sickneses going around so thank you all so much for being so supportive of me being here and always having my back with this! i will never ever forget how lucky i am that my church was behind me and i was able to go all the way to uganda and live my dream! finally!! as a little girl sitting in front of the tv watching world vision thinking when i grow up i will be there and help those kids i never truly thought i would! so the little girl inside me is jumping for joy right now thinking that this trip just actually happened! 

so like i said thank you everyone so much for everything !! i think and pray about you all all the time !! and i leave in three days so i am so excited to come home and see you all and show you in person how thankful i am! 

be blessed everyone and ill see you next week!!!!!! :) 

this is a random addition a tribute to uganda,.. these are my thoughts on my whole trip and the things im thankful for and am happy for 

in my trip i have experienced things that the average person wouldn't get the chance to see in uganda.. I thank god every day that when he was making the plan for my life he perfectly fit uganda in there.. I have fallen in love with this country, every day i wake up happy knowing i will see so many amazing people and be blessed enough to daily hold gods children. This country has brought me a happiness i never thought i would be lucky enough to get! i wasn't in the best place before i came here i was searching for happiness searching for my place in god and where i belonged but being here i have finally found who i am in myself in god in everything! i am so thankful that i have had these 4 and half months to find who i truly am, and to have lived this life in this country. this is one of the most beautiful countries i have ever been to in my whole life! the beauty here is in the nature of course the nile and the trees and the rolling hills and the fields but its so much more than that. its in the people! there people in this country are beautiful i have never met people like Ugandans. and the babies! man! they are seriously amazing they will steal your heart with one look i promise ! so if you ask me about my time with watoto and if i would come back my answer is yes! i will come back! i love uganda and i suggest to everyone to come here if you ever have the chance! love you all so much! 

Let the countdown begin!!

Consider me to seriously love you guys! im sorry i don't blog so much but in my new location Suubi we can only access internet outside and unfortunately for me i work the late shift so only time im on is at night.. let me tell you ! African mosquitoes are scary and they travel in packs so im getting eaten alive so im going to try to run through this with a large attempt to make some sense!!

So to fill you in on my transition .. let me tell you it hasn't been easy! Gulu was my home for three months so being in another location loving other babies i feel like im cheating ! hahah ! but at the same point its been wonderful! its kind of beautiful because all the babies i started my trip off with in kampala have all been moved here. So its nice to end my trip with the same babies that i poured all my cuddles and tears into when i first arrived! Being here has had challenges for sure but in the end it has been so much more rewarding. The location of this place the only way you can describe it is peaceful! it has a beauty here that can only be explained by one word.. God.. Everything i see in this land i see God's face shining through it because beauty like this can only come from him! I wake up every single morning to a beautiful porch over looking mountains and a sunrise to die for! and on top of that i walk down a couple of stairs and get to love on God's little babies! and living in the village with all the children and walking around and all you can do is honestly thank god that all these kids were given a second chance! Its bitter sweet because you feel remorse that such beautiful kids were abandon but at the same time you see God's love in that because he never forgot about them. He never abandon them! They are here with a better chance at life! There each blessed with a beautiful home and a mother and a safe village and a school and people to teach them about god! Its beautiful! 

   This country isn't the way the tv makes it seem. People assume that everyone here is crying and bugs on there faces but really living here and thinking of home i feel bad for people at home. Most people have never experienced joy like people in Uganda. Walking around the villages and seeing poor children there laughing more than i am! There happy! Maybe they don't have a WII and an I Phone and a cupboard full of food but at the end of it all there happier than most people

    I came here to teach and to love on people and to show them God and i have but looking back on my trip i see that they have taught me! they have showed me love! they have built up my relationship with god because everytime they give me a smile or a little child runs up to me just to touch my hand i see God's face in there smile! 

Today was a perfect example, me and my roomates went on a walk off the village and three little boys came running up to us giggling, they didn't speak a word of english but they ran up to us and each grabbed one of our hands and just walked on our walk with us giggling and holding our hands! they had no idea what we were saying but they were just happy to touch our hands and walk with us! It was the most amazing moment and all i could do was thank god for bringing me to this moment! 

but as for anything new here we had an awesome christmas and new years of course one for the memories! it was a lot different than back home i mean i ate pasta on christmas but it was a memory i will never forget! New years we got to go to an all night sing at the watoto church! there had to be like 3000 people there it was so packed! it had 3 over flow rooms packed and the street packed and the inside of the stadium packed! it was an awesome way to start the new year with so many people worshiping god right into 2012! so that was one of my best new years i have had i think i will never forget that!! 

Also i have new roomies and everyday i thank god for them! there so amazing we all have so much fun together and we click so well its wonderful god has really blessed me with amazing people to surround me always! it is truly awesome ! 

Lastly!! watoto will be planting a new church in south sudan! We got the update this morning! this is so awesome and so exciting there is a lot of need in sudan especially with all the war and stuff so please keep that in your prayers for them! it is a hard mission but so rewarding and i know god is going to do amazing things there seriously!!! 

SO i guess you could say i'm loving my last little while here. Im trying to really soak up every second because i know that the days are numbered and i only have a couple weeks left and ill be back in Canada. The thought is bitter sweet because i am so happy to see my family and hug every person in my church and be able to bless people the way uganda has blessed me! But at the same point everytime i think of going home my eyes fill with tears. This place has changed me for the better! I will be sad to go but i know that this is a stepping stone onto better things! so i ask everyone please pray for me as my last days are coming close! its a scary thought coming home but im so looking forward to it as well! Of course ill miss not waking up to cute little black babies every morning but hey! Good thing my sister has twins! :) hahah, but i just want to thank you all for what your doing for me, your prayers your support it all means so much to me and not a day goes by that i don't think about it and smile and thank and pray for you all! you guys are a big part of this and i will never forget that! Thank you !!

ill be seeing '' most '' of you in 17 days!!! :) im looking forward to it!! hope you all had an awesome christmas and a happy new year!!

OH AND PS.. WATOTO CHURCH IS DOING A NATIONWIDE FAST FOR FIVE DAYS AND PERSONALLY THERE IS NO WAY I CAN GIVE UP FOOD SO THEY CHALLENGED US TO GIVE UP ANYTHING ELSE THAT IS BLOCKING US FROM SPENDING TIME WITH GOD AND THAT WOULD BE FACEBOOK/MY LAP TOP FOR ME! SO THATS WHY IM BLOGGING NOW AND I WILL NOT RESPOND TO YOUR COMMENTS UNTIL SATURDAY! WISH ME LUCK :) xxooo!